stress

considering i started this job when i had no job, i now can say that i've experienced unemployed and employed stress and it's honestly pretty much the same. i'm now convinced that life is just one big bucket of stress and we get to figure out how to manage, deal and not split apart from it.

i suppose i can feel good that a hard day's work doesn't include stalking animals through the woods so i can eat dinner. or that i don't have to wash my clothes with one of those old-fashioned washing machines. in fact, i don't know that i could even describe a hard day's work. except that it sometimes makes me want to come home and sleep, or crawl under my desk and scream. i earn frequent flier miles, figure out how to get totally crazy projects done and try to make lawyers happy. some folks would call that herding cats. i call it helping rabid dogs. once you manage to inoculate them, they seem to be much happier with you. you just have to avoid being bit in the process.

so right now, i feel like a hole might be forming in my stomach. but that will probably go away, right?