Return of the Bitterness

Today was not a good day. Major bitterness came out of nowhere. I think it may be because this Friday will mark the day that I had planned to quit my job. I don't know if that is really it, or not, but I'm in such a sour mood that it seems I should be able to pin it on something, right? Yes, I had planned for my last day to be Friday, March 5th, after which my 401K would be partially vested and I would've received an end of year bonus. Alas, none of those things happened. I suppose the flip side is that the Department of Economic Security is helping me bridge the gap and I am left with some amount of bitterness.

I've also been continuing on the informational interview kick and I think I need to be done for awhile. I mean, I'm getting plenty of decent information, but in general, I feel farther and farther away from any sort of resolution. Granted, I know that life is a process and not a destination. I get all of that in theory. In practice? Well, it's difficult to sit around knowing that you want to be doing something meaningful, yet at any moment in time, baking bread can seem as meaningful and fulfilling as public health. Or helping small business owners seems as meaningful as writing short stories. Or volunteering for a political campaign could be fulfilling alongside working at Starbucks. Yeah. Where the hell is my magic 8 ball?