ms. pac-man

my favorite game, but really has not a thing to do with this post. i'm thinking of packs, but not video games. i'm just completely amazed by how humans operate in packs. i notice it everywhere, but particularly at my new place of employment. i'm one of those people who picks up on relationships - who likes who, who hates who, who owes who a gigantic favor. i used to like this information because it seemed to be helpful in times of need. like a warped sort of barter system. but that only serves to get people in trouble. unless you are at the top of the heap, where relationships matter on a whole different scale, i find that it is fine to know information, but sharing it is a different story. information has to be parceled out carefully. who do you trust? what could come back to bite you in the ass? those kinds of questions become increasingly important to answer. people gather together, they form alliances for protection, socialization and for fulfillment. it's a weird thing to watch and an even weirder thing to understand.

i hate to think of myself as a political animal, but sometimes, i just can't help it. i think it is because people like to talk to me. and while i try to keep all information in this secure vault called my brain, some of it just leaks out. sometimes because i want it to and sometimes because i can't help it. in the end, i hope that i make decent decisions about who to trust, but you never know who is a ghost and who is your pac-man.

cryptic enough? on a lighter note, none of it is earthshattering or interesting enough for me to actually care all that much. i just think it makes for an interesting observation.